Wow.

Well. This was not supposed to happen.

I've had major fluctuations in my weight over the past 5 years, ranging from 155 to 180. I'm back at 180 and I am absolutely disgusting.

BUT I am not going to let this continue, I need to change it. There's no reason to be unhappy about something if I have the power to change it. And while it sucks that I've gotten back up to this weight, I know I can lose it because I've done it before. I just need to get to an even lower weight and maintain it. I want to fall in love with running, limit my binges (I've had issues with this), have sharp collarbones and hip bones. I want to be cute and small and sexy even if I'm just wearing a t-shirt and shorts. Right now, I'm not comfortable with my body. So as of tomorrow, I'm restricting calories again. I'll let you all know how it goes. 

-Ana.

PS. Sorry this post sucks.